Insanity

Sanity is not statistical - George Orwell in 1984

According to the Oxford Advanced Learning's Dictionary, insanity is defined as:

the state of being seriously mentally ill and unable to live in normal society

The key word in the definition is "normal". If you are considered normal by the society, you will not be then insane. In other words, insanity arises when one does not accept the standards of the society. Thus a person that think the present government is trying to create a false memory for the citizens by making synthetic sun, sky and everything to deceive us will be considered to be insane because what he said is not what people in society will believe. Socrates was charged for corrupting the young and was put to death because he questioned the "normal" standard of the society. Jesus was crucified because he was teaching what the Jewish society at the time did not believe.

Insanity also arises when you think that 1 + 1 = 2 but people tell you it's 3. Who is insane? You or the people?

What is History?

According to the Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary, history is:

all the events that happened in the past

This definition is inadequate. History is:

all the recorded events that happened in the past

I am born in 1989. This is a date. This is a concrete fact that goes to history. Or does it? After a hundred year, hopefully not several decades, I will die. Under the ground, the worms will compete to eat my flesh. The vicious bacteria will decompose me. After another hundred years, I will become mud. One blazingly hot day, a construction worker will grab a handful of this mud, pour some water on it and glue the bricks. I will be part of a wall. I will be forgotten.

I cease to exist in history.

History only exists when it is recorded. It exists when we remember the past. Therefore it has no concrete existence. It is only real in our mind. Outside of our mind, it is meaningless. It has no value.

Destroying the records and/or creating new ones produce raw materials for the past. The second step is to erase the memory and refill it with the brand new records. History is then born. What is once a concrete and infallible fact is only a human invention.

As it is said in 1984 ," Who controls the present controls the past."

What a tragedy.

微笑?奸笑?

岳不羣同左冷禪爭奪五嶽派掌門人之位．戰前岳不羣先裝模作樣道：

“刀劍不生眼睛，一動上手，難免死傷， 這話不錯。”轉頭向華山派群弟子道：“華山門下眾人聽著：我和左 師兄是切磋武藝，絕無仇怨，倘若左師兄失手殺了我，或是打得我身 受重傷，乃是激斗之際，不易拿捏分寸，大伙兒不可對左師伯懷恨， 更不可與嵩山門下尋仇生事，壞了我五岳派同門的義氣。”

當左冷禪長劍出鞘，「聲震山谷」時，岳不羣假惺惺地「將長劍連劍鞘從腰間解下，放在封禪台一角，這才慢慢將劍抽 了出來」

後來他更用華山劍法假裝不敵左冷禪．最緊要關頭時他便施展辟邪劍法刺瞎左冷禪雙眼．

岳不羣退到台角，冷眼望著絶望狂叫的左冷禪，「微笑」．

原來微笑同奸笑是微不可分的！

青蛇

剛剛看完青蛇的小說和徐克拍的戲，發覺愛上了法海這角色．

表面上是正氣凜然，殺妖除魔的和尚，內裏卻是同蛇妖爭風吃醋的同性戀．他用高深的禪理掩飾自己浪子野心，勾引許仙，企圖帶他返大本營金山寺:

許仙在疑惑：
　　“那是些什么？”
　　“你看，空中下望，盡皆骷髏，夫妻恩愛，情人反目，女人是驚擾世道人心的濁物，眾生都為虛情假意所傷，朝為紅顏，夕已成白骨。——白骨猶彼此攻汗，敲打不絕。”
　　“呀”
　　“施主掉下凡塵的是什么？是銀子？……越聰明的人，越是‘貪’。你得了色，又要財，是貪；愛了一個，又愛一個，是貪，罪孽深重，阿彌陀佛！”
　　只有我才知道真相：人比妖孽更厲害的，是他深謀遠慮。他搶救不到贓物了。
　　“讓我考慮一下？”
　　“哈哈！沒時間考慮了。你正在鎮江金山寺途上，無法回頭了，我不打算由你。”
　　“師傅——”
　　許仙的聲音轉弱了。
　　這法海扶持許仙。已在騰云駕霧風馳電掣中。他把他捕獵。

女人對你當然是「驚擾世道人心的濁物」，因為你是喜歡男人！不知為何自己卻愛上了這奸角．

太諷刺了．

笑?

不，不微笑了，只會偶然微微奸笑．

雨

朦朦朧朧醒來，窗外落著陣陣愁雨，突然想起柳永八聲甘州裡的：

「對瀟瀟暮雨灑江天，一番洗清秋．」

倒頭欲再睡片刻，卻被窗外雨聲醒，無奈，又想起柳永的：

「為伊消得人憔悴．」

「正常」

「你早上喝什麼？」

「茶，濃茶．」

「啊，你能喝正常點的東西嗎？」

無言







「喂！你大學選那科？」

「國際關係，政治．」

「啊，你有想過其它正常科目嗎？」

無言








「你喜歡那一類型的書？」

「詩詞，尤其是曹植的洛神賦．」

「還有其他正常著作嗎？」

夠了，
究竟什麼是「正常」？

Nikolai Ivanovich Bukharin

無意間遇上這幅畫，有強烈感覺．

畫中人是　Nikolai Ivanovich Bukharin ，1938年二月沒有證據下被以“叛國罪”而槍決．絶望，臨死前問：

Koba, why do you need me to die?

(注 Koba 即 Stalin)

畫中鮮艷顏色同淒哀與絶望形成夢幻，淒然與無奈感覺．尤其左上角鮮綠色一幅，隱隱透出死亡陰森寒氣．



讓我們為Bukharin默默哀悼把．

虛無在虛無著

「虛無意識是對社會停止作出思維上和心靈上的交流，因此有虛無潛意識的人在社會中虛無的境界虛無著．」，教授語重心長說．

「教授，這可是後現代主義香港作家西西和耶魯大學的雅克·德希達所對社會的控訴嗎？」，李同學問．

「李同學，你未免過於偏激了．虛無意識是後現代主義和現代主義的融合發展，所以無所謂控訴不控訴」，教授回答．

「教授，我們會否因此在思維上和心靈上墮落原始形而上學的陷阱嗎？」，熱心的陳同學問．

「不會，虛無如老子的道是包羅萬有的，所以虛無是宇宙的一個總和．」教授答

兩位同學不約而同地「啊」了一聲．


我坐在課室一角，微笑．

現代社會的諷刺

想起老夫子的一段六格漫畫:

前面有個留有長髮的人，老夫子分不清是男或是女，所以便一掌拍下去．啊！原來是男人來的．

對，非常無聊，非常荒謬

但街上常偶短髮人，可惜苦無老夫子神勇，只急步走過察看男或女．驚起，根本弄不清！

罷了，現代社會就是男女不分．

夢佳人

圓臉玉顏，汪汪眼，執手相視微笑．
黯黯夢雲斷，朦朧星夜掛殘月．　

笑

「笑是理智的勝利」- 老舍

情感同理智有絶對的矛盾嗎?

木王星

遙想萬里木王星，古質淳民之風，氣吞星河之勢．奈何星夜淡，一煙彗星銀鬚尾．

Duplicity

The pale yellow light in a large comfortable room conforms harmoniously with the light coloured wallpaper which is subtly embedded with the mustard flowers. A large and grand portrait of Stalin is held over the small bed. It is like an Native American amulet to protect the little children from bad dreams and disturbance in their sleep and it too seems to fit the tranquility of the room with Stalin's confident kind smile. The grandfather is sitting beside the bed and is taking a book from his pocket to tell the night-time story to the boy on the bed.

The grandfather reads " Long long time ago, there was a god named Zeus. He is a god in lighting and is the father of all gods. One day he had done some very bad thing with a woman called Io. His wife, Hera, found this out and so Zeus was forced to turn Io into a cattle. Hera was still worried. She sent her most obedient servant, Argus, to check the cattle in days and nights, in case that Zeus came back to find her.This god, Argus, was the most fearsome of all. He got dark ominous eyes all over his body."

"All over his body!", the boy asks.

"Yes indeed, all over his body. Each eye took turn to sleep while the other kept careful watch on Io. Zeus desperately wanted to save Io from the evil Argus and so he sent Hermes, the god of music, to save her. Hermes, with his beautiful and sweet voice, sang songs after songs to lure Argus to sleep. It was no easy tasks because Argus literally had thousand of eyes and imagine how long it would take to shut them all!"

"Did he succeed?"

"Along with his singing, Hermes resorted to his magic wand to shut all the other Argus' eyes. Slowly but surely, the eyes of Argus shut down one by one because he couldn't resist the mysterious power and the beautiful sweet singing that called him to sleep like a sheep, like a baby that was resting peacefully in his mother's lap. Finally Argus fell asleep and Hermes seized the chance to slay him. However that was not the end of the story. Hera was so furious for the death of Argus, her most obedient servant, that she recruited back the ghost of Argus and transformed the lamented ghost into gadfly to torment Io till the end of the earth."

"Why? Why was Hera so evil? Why can't she forgive Io? Isn't is right to forgive someone?"

"We are humans and human nature is always complex." says the grandfather, almost reflectively to himself, alright, that's it for tonight"

"Grandpa, can you tell me one more story? Please?"

"My dear boy, it's already too late for tonight. You really need to sleep.", the grandfather says.

The old man rises up, rather feebly and walks slowly to the door and says softly " Good night, Antony."

"Good night, grandpa", says Antony reluctantly

The old man closes the door but alas, he has left his book behind. Antony notices it and immediately seizes it. Excited, he opens it and surprisingly it is written all over with his grandfather's own handwriting. There are numerous other accounts of stories. One describes a Japanese god named Aizen-Myoo. He is the god of love and has a ferocious appearance. He gets an additional eye in his forehead and has a head of lion in his hair. Another describes a Celtic god named Balor. From his birth, he acquired a deadly ability. He has only one eye but he always closed it because anything would be dead if he looks upon it. One time, his grandson, Lugh, came to rip out his eye with a sling. He was thereafter killed miserably by his own grandson.

Antony flips pages by pages and is amazed to see the sea of gods and their stories. At the same time he finds it strange that first half of the book are written with an entirely different handwriting and he is horrified to find spots of dried bloodstain in the one of them. He reads:

13 January 1933

Dear Kitty,

You are the only friend that I could talk to without asking me questions. It's strange for everyone around me looks so weird. They have some inexplicable expression that seems to hide something. I tried to talk with mom but she never said anything beyond the weather or the household works. She would have said "Ah today is cloudy" or "The sun looks nice"

Beside when there was news of machinery breakdown, mom and dad become even stranger. Dad will immediately go back home after work and mom will also finish work earlier. Then they will be silent in the rest of the evening. One time, I dropped my pen and dad instantly glares at me for making too much sound.

I am confused. At another time I complained to mom about the little food we have and I am asking why although we work so hard days and nights, we receive so little. Who has caused all this misery? She was stunned for a moment and immediately turned pale. Then she was furious and scolded " Are you mad? Don't ever say anything like this again and now go do your work!".

Why? What's wrong with my question? Why is everyone so cold? I am confused, Kitty. I feel alone. I hope I can really find an answer in one day.

26 June 1933

Dear Kitty,

A man came to us tonight. It was raining and there were occasional thunders. I sat beside the window and was waiting to see the slash of lighting coming across in the dark sky. Dad was reading his copy of Pravda and mom was weaving for our little extra money. At first, a knock to the door was heard. Dad and mom trembled, as tough they received their death sentences. They looked at each other and dad nodded. He slowly opened the door and it was a very young man. He had fair hair and was a very pleasant looking man.

There was a strange attraction for his beautiful crystal blue eyes. They were like the lightening I was trying hard to see at night and they gave out a sense of strong confidence. Let me for now, Kitty, call him Mr.Blue.

Still, dad's expression was as white as sheet. Tears were rolling down from my mom's cheek as she was praying. Mr.Blue was surprised at first to the scene and said assuredly "Don't worry. I just received an urgent order from above to warn you of the infiltrated anti-soviet element in the farms. We, the Soviet citizens, must take the responsibility to root them out." Saying this, he gave us another assured smile and left.

Dad heaved a strong relief and mom was almost collapsed. What happened? He was evidently not a bad man from his fine appearance. Have dad and mom done something that I was not aware of? I wish, Kitty, that you can tell me the answer.

25 July 1937

It was since a few years that I didn't write because mom and dad did not permit me to write anything down on solid paper. Over the years, they became increasingly pathetic. I slowly grasp their essence of fear because I was more and more aware of a network of hidden enemies conspiring against us. Mom and dad must have known them but they are not dared to denounce them. That's why they seldom talk to anyone. That's why they bear a suspicious look on everyone. That's why they never allowed me to talk too much.

Even Leader Stalin,our beloved destined leader, called for greater vigilance and we, the pioneer of the future, must take the core responsibility to unmask the enemy. He was certainly right when last month, another machine in dad's factory , yes another one again, broke down. How could it be possible to explain these breakdowns without the conspiracy of the wreckers?

They are the trouble for my home. They make mom and dad like this. When I find them, I must grind their flesh and eat it. This is how those scoundrels should be treated.

12 February 1938

I can't believe it! It was impossible. Why? Why? Why them? How could dad be a conspirator of those scoundrels? How could mom serve as his messenger to the "center"?

It must be that mom and dad found their nest in here. Those scoundrels are well aware of it and they seize the chance to denounce them first. It should be mom and dad who should have denounced them.

May dear Stalin grant me justice on this!

13 February 1938

I have gone to discuss with the NKVD man today. It was the same man or Mr. Blue that came to us in the last few years. He bore the same fine appearance as before but his blue eyes were even sharper and more glittering. They unleashed the same strong confidence as before.

He said to me "Don't worry. We have been following those people long time ago and we know who are the enemy of the people and who aren't. From the record, your parents are definitely innocent. As a matter of investigation procedure, we need to keep them for a week. I hope you can understand this."

I thank him and there is no one more sensible than him.

20 February 1938

A week had passed but I haven't heard anything of mom and dad. What was happening to them? Has something gone wrong? Did they really participate in the conspiracy?

I went to the NKVD headquarter but to no avail. The men just won't let me in and they threatened to accuse me as one of the Trotskites. One of them even said " Hmm, I wonder how an enemy of the people will try to undermine the state by constantly annoying us."

It was at this time that Mr.Blue came to scold them. He shouted at them and said "You scoundrels! Your job is to cleanse the state. Now you threatened the innocences?"

He turned to me and I immediately burst out my questions. He said " Don't worry, we were just investigating the circumstantial evidence that is provided by one of workers in the factory. However we have strong suspicions on the motive of this worker but as a matte of the investigation procedure, we must keep them longer."

I don't know what to say. I am worried and he noticed that. He reassured " I promise to clear the matter within one month time".

21 march 1938

Horror!

I hate him. He must be the damned devil. He himself must be the Trotskite. I must recount all this before I die, before I leave this world.

A month had passed and still there was no news of them. Was dad so hysterical because he feared other people figuring out his conspiracy? Did they forbid me to write anything down because it might be used against them as evidence of their plan?

I went to see Mr. Blue again. He gave me another reassurance that they were keeping for further investigation. I asked "Did you not promise to keep them just for a month?". I became more skeptical and I was almost certain that he knew it. He said "Let me bring you to see them. I am sure that you would like to meet them".

He led me to dark narrow long hallway. The feeble yellow light from the tiny light bulbs revealed the huge rough stones that made up the wall. It was damp and it was intensified in this beginning of the spring. Along this came the oppressive heat which pressed you to the point of suffocation. I smelt a stale odor that must have been risen due to the combination of the dampness and the heat.

I walked with him and became dizzier in every minutes, or worse in every second. The wall seems to bend to a horizontal way and the hallway was indefinitely extended. Then suddenly, I fell unconsciousness.

I woke up in a room.

This would be the most horrible room I have ever been. In front of me was a strange statue. It was a man with heavy beard and he was all covered with small little eyes. I began to look around and there were all bookshelves. Yet most terrifyingly they contained no books but small plastic bottles that were lined in a row. In everyone of them was floating a perfectly round eyeball.

Eyeball of different colours. Black. Brown. Green. Blue.

They seem to be staring at you.

I cried and immediately ran up to a staircase. There was no door. I bounced and kicked and pushed hard into the wall and still nothing happened. I sat down and cried. I found myself sitting on a large painting. It was a figure like a demon with a head of lion in his hair. An additional eye in his forehead made its angry expression more frightening. Wait. There was some weak light. It was penetrated from the a small crack in the roof above. I pushed up the roof and surprising one part of it rose smoothly.

I ran up and was stunned to the peaceful surrounding. The room was actually a basement and its opening was a bed.

I can't speak how much I was relieved when I saw the portrait of Stalin above the bed. Its confident kind smile soothed me and all previous oddness seemed to be nothing.

I heard the footstep and instantly I tried to run away. It was too late. The door was opened and it was Mr. Blue. He was stunned for fraction of a second but then resumed his usual confidence. The confidence in his eyes was replaced by an inexplicable evil triumphant feeling in the cold blue threads. He smiled and said " My dear girl, where are you going? Please don't worry. I am bringing you to see your parents".

I tried to rush past him to escape but something stung my neck. I fell unconsciousness again.

I woke up.

I can see nothing. There was only darkness. I touched my face and I found bondage. The rows of eyeballs flashed back into my mind and where are my eyes? I wanted to cry but was unable to do so. There was no tear.

I heard him talking outside of the door.

"Shoot this masked scoundrel inside the room for planning to assassinate me in my home. She must be conspiring with her parents to arrange this chance. "

He must be the ultimate agent of the Trotskites. Mom and dad must have knew him and so he took the first strike. He is the damned devil from the hell. His flesh should be ground for dogs and dumped into the sewers.





Antony shuddered at this hatred of a woman. He gets up and tries to lift up his bed. To his surprise, it has smoothly risen and there was a staircase below. His little body shook because this is exactly how the woman described. He wants to cry. "Are there really those eyeballs?" He slowly goes down with his two tiny legs and begins to see the terrifying expression of the figure.

Suddenly, there is sound of footsteps. Antony rushes back and is using all his force to push back the bed. Too late. The grandfather opens the door and has taken a step back. Antony is standing there speechless and feeling his cheeks burning. The grandfather quickly resumes calmness and cracked a benevolent, or rather malicious smile.

"My dear Antony, may I have back my notebook?"

"Koba, why do you need me to die?"

"Koba, why do you need me to die?" - Nikolai Bukharin

There were used to be threads like strands of electricity which are connected to each other in a maze of deep network inside Raphael 's eyes.

They glittered. They shone. They unleashed the brightest light with the utmost confidence.

Now these once glittering strands are dim. Red threads are infiltrated inside the crystal blue network like a vicious virus squeezing itself into the cell. They are like red worms that are wiggling inside the slightest creaks of two round exquisite blue marbles. The confidence inside blue eyes are dissipated and invaded by an inexplicable fear.

This is not the fear of death or despair. This is the fear of uncertainty, of ignorance, a fear that a child has at night, a fear that a man has when he is lost in a forest

This fear is devouring Raphael now. He is running in the narrow dark hallway. He is sweating, he is coughing. He is looking back to check if someone is chasing him. Yet he pays no attention around his surrounding.

He runs and he runs and finally he sees the light that is coming from the exit. All of a sudden, he senses movement above his head and stops. He looks upward and sees a crescent blade is tied up to a string and it is swinging from the extreme right to the extreme left The most horrified thing is that it is descending with lightening speed.

He does not have time to react because he is already beheaded in matter of fraction of a second. A head is rolling along the ground, with the bloodshot eyes wide open.

A man is coming from the source of light. He walks slowly and languidly toward the dead man. Wearing white gloves, he picks up the head triumphantly.

A smile is cracked

One hand is holding the head, the other one is skilfully finding the right angle of degree to pinch the blue eyes out. He pinches the upper muscle and exert pressure on the pouch, the eyeball is squeezed out smoothly. From his pocket, he immediately picks a small plastic bottle that is fill with unknown liquid. He then drops the eyeball inside it. He repeats the same procedure for the other eyeball.

Another smile is cracked as he is watching one of his newfound trophies that are floating inside the little plastic bottles. The ugly disturbing red threads are disappeared. What is left is the original blue threads in which every one of them sparkles like a lightening in the dark night. Yet there is a strange quality. It seems to be trying to say something or to be more precise, it is struggling to lament something.

"Koba, why do you need me to die?"

A Bedtime's Story

Blink

The luminous blue eyes blink in a room in which a dim lamp is still on at the bedside.

The light blue threads inside the eyes intermingle with each others and form a great mysterious maze. The dark pupil is locked in this large network of beaming blue thread.

The owner of these eyes asks "Dad, why are there stars in the sky?"

The Dad frowns and says "You really want to know?"

The owner says" Yes. Every times, I look out at the sky, I wonder why they appear."

The Dad says " Well, the story was dated long long time ago..."

The owner interrupted "How long?"

"Very long. Long before your dad, me, and your grandpa have been born. In fact, that dated back to the beginning of the world"

" At the beginning, there was a giant man that is being squashed in tiny little round room", he continues, "One day, he had enough of it and he stood up to expand the room".

"And so the world is created but at that time, there is no trees or anything else. There is only absolute darkness"

"The giant man used his hair to make the trees. His tears to be the river. His skin to be the ground. His backbones to be the great range of mountains. "

" He wanted the earth to be fertilized with his thinking and so he took part of his soul to create the man and the woman. That's why we, humans, are so intelligent ( "what does 'intelligent mean'?", the owner asks) or smart"

" By the time, there is still only darkness. The giant man took off one of his eyes to be the sun. However, he noticed after the sun goes down, humans tended to do bad things."

"What bad things?", the owner asks.

" Stealing, lying, cheating", the Dad answers.

The owner of the beautiful blue eyes shudders. He is blinking faster and faster now and the blue threads are shaking with fear which is mixed by a slight hint of subtle excitement.

"To stop his creation doing bad things, the giant man took off his another eye. He broke it into many small pieces. The biggest piece is to be the moon. The other little tiny pieces are all scattered in the sky at night. They are all little eyes of the giant man to supervise the humans."

" What will happen if people have done bad things?", the owner asks with his blue eye focusing even more now on his dad.

" The stars will come to the world and be transformed into an immortal form of a person to warn them doing the good things again."

" That' it?". the owner asks

" If the person is still doing bad things, the stars will again come and take the eyes of that person to join them in the sky."

" Cool, so that person could join the stars to travel around the world? His eyes could be decorated in different colours and help the other stars to supervise the world? "

"It is the most horrible thing for a person to lose the eyes.That's enough for tonight. "

" Could you tell me a little bit more on what the stars and the eyes do in the sky, please?"

"It is already too late for tonight, sleep now"

The Dad bends over and switches off the lamp. Only the stars outside of the windows and the dim blue eyes are visible now.

"Good night" says the Dad and he leaves.

In the next morning, a terrible agonized cry is heard. Two blue eyes are hanging at the window. The black pupils are integrated into the great maze of blue threads and are dilated to the largest extent, as when they are staring at something. They are to be incorporated into liquid of white substance to form perfectly round eyeballs.

But this time, they did not blink.

The Starry Night

Some nonsense for me to avoid doing history homework today :

The myriad of stars appear in the sky. They compete with each other with their blue, red and green lights but none of them is able to penetrate through the dark mass of leaves that covers the pathway.

The streetlight stabs through the leaves and is deeply rooted at the end of the pathway. Under it stood her. Through black glasses with a bright red joint, her brown dark eyes are looking at him.

At the other end of the pathway stood him. He is looking at her. She has a oval face with a high nose and long chin. The subtle yellow streetlight hit upon the tiny little red, blue and green stones in her earing of a butterfly.

The light reflects back like the light of the stars in the sky. Yet they are both looking at each other. With silence.

The Picture of Dorian Gray - An Imitation

The skull-like moon oversees the quiet night. He stretches monstrous arms of moonlight with unusual brightness to the darkness below. One of them streams straight past the broken window and hit a man.

A man with angelic face

A man with cold blue eyes.

A man with a malicious smile.

Opposite to him is a portrait. A portrait of an old man. Like King Louis XIV in his elaborate dress, he poses with total confidence. One could sense the royal authoritative charisma from him through the portrait. Yet he is withered and old. His once golden hair turns completely grey. His blue eyes are diminished with an weariness. The nose and mouth are stuck on his face in a cluster. He is another old poor man you see on the streets. With his grotesque winkled face, his pose is more like a third -rate actor trying to be King Macbeth with his majestic look but instead only succeeds to act with over-exaggerated facial gesture of emotion.

Looking at this horrible portrait, the man laughs. His subtle malevolent smile turned into laughter. Mad laughter.

Under the Sun

Under the sun, he is thinking. What is life? What is death? Life is death. Death is life.To be alive is to be dead. To be dead is to be alive. You search for pleasure and happiness when you are alive. In death, you find the ultimate peace. The purpose of both life and death is to achieve the maximum well being.

Strange, strange. It is so much easier to die than to remain alive. Living is such a painful experience. One is born. One fights for food. One designed every wicked way to harm the other. Meanwhile, one must defend oneself from other danger as well. This process of attack and defence possibly takes sixty to eighty years. At the end, one fails to achieve maximum well being.

In death, one needs someone ( or possible himself only) to stab the knife on the fifth bone of the left rib cage, you die, without pain, in a fraction of a second. Automatically, you gain peace. A peace which all living people struggles to find but hopelessly fail.

Strange, strange. Why are other people not aware of this fact? This simple truth. Am I the only who knows it? No, no. Hitler knew it. He had given the best gift, peace, to the Jews by gassing them en masse. People did not understand him. Hitler was, in fact, a Jew-lover.

The world is never fair. Bad people die quicker and good people live longer.

An Unfinished Story

The wan moonlight penetrates through the quiet night and hit upon a withered branch of a thick old tree which struggles to grow out from a creak beside the red-brick wall. Another wall goes parallel with the other one and this forms a long and narrow alley. Occasional squeaks of rats are heard and black cat with luminous eyes in the leadened dark is searching for food in the heaps of garbage. The squeaks are soon to be replaced by sharp moaning as the cat are delightfully and maliciously vivisecting the struggling rats. A wavering shadow is slowly formed on the wall and this is briskly followed by man who is wearing a large flat hat and wrapped in thick cloth. He is trotting in the alley and an object is fallen from him.

The night passes quickly with unusual quietude. The sun begins to rise from the horizon and its finger-like rays stream through the dim blue sky. Slowly and surely, the sun creeps to the center of the sky. Its rays are now merged into a mass of inseparable light . Under this sun, a boy is rushing through the alley and suddenly sees a ......

Forgive and forget

Dictator always forgives and forgets two kind of people. One is the dictator himself and the other is the dead people.